There comes a time in every martialartist’s training when they get to a point where they feel as though they are not learning anything, and they are not moving forward at all. This is not that they are not being taught anything, but the strong feeling like it simply isn’t going in!
It is a horrible feeling, and it comes and goes from time to time. I call it THE WALL, and yep, you guessed it… I’ve hit one!
Not for the first time I might add, but it is one of the most challenging things to go though as you train. I have found that invariably, when you reach a wall, all kinds of doubts will crop up in your mind about your training specifically, and other things too.
Am I good enough?
Do I really deserve my grade?
Why is this so difficult for me to get?
Why am I getting worse?
The list goes on…
DON’T LISTEN LISTEN TO THIS VOICE IN YOUR HEAD!
Having gone through this before I know for a fact that what ever I am feeling about it right now, I am learning. Even though my mind may be elsewhere, my muscles are gaining memory, and once they know what to do I won’t need to think about it anyway!
I know I just have to stick at it, I just have to persevere, and soon I will break through this wall I have put up in my own mind.
It is these times that test me. I have read about this at great length in the many books and websites I peruse, and each time I do, it reminds me that at times of difficulty, people can so often give up, or even worse “take a break”. The reason I say this is worse, is that I have done just this. I’ve hit the wall in the past, and thought I’ll just take a break from training for a few weeks. Then weeks turn into months, months turn into years, and by the time you find the motivation to get back to training, you find yourself having to join a new school, starting from grade one all over again.
And frankly so you should!! As I have several times!
The reason I am writing this entry is that I have been struggling with this WALL for several weeks now, it has not been easy, but for the first time at class this week, I saw through it.
I still have some way to go to truly break through it, but realising that whatever my mind might be telling me, my body is moving forward, and frankly right now that’s fine with me!
The less my mind has to do (when practicing Wing Chun), the better.
“Unconscious competence” HERE I COME!